So, an interesting week. Last night i got a headache because i hadn't taken any drugs. It was that point i realised i needed this holiday business to chill out a bit. Saw christian for the first time in ages, which was kinda strange really. I dont know how to explain why, we were just weird with eachother. I guess its residue of everything that happened earlier in the year and a new distance. (srry if this doesn't make sense, i'm stoned and the screen is really bright so i'm not looking at it).

As for the intrahouse tensions, well Dave (aka wonderboy, prince of pleasure, captain amazing and professor perfect) and i got a touch drunk on thusday and ended up in his room severly shattering house rule 2: no screwing the crew. It was great though, crazy, passionate, built up, drunken, dirty....all that good stuff. Then ian and i had a big d&m and i decided it really shouldn't have happened, and wonderboy and i agreed. But very very early this morning, after he'd been out all night he knocked on my door and well...we broke a few more rules...or really just the same one repeatedly. All day today we were stealing kisses around the house and flirting mercilessly with our eyes. Its fucking cool. I do feel bad, terrible, because i've lied a bit to ian, just to save him worrying about it. Its me whos gotta do the worrying. Its perhaps the worst idea i've ever had, but i really like him and the sex is phenomenal. Bad bad girl.

Met RockMan's housemates last night - strange. Rock man is our neighbour, who i enjoy spying on. Hes the rockinest guy out, very sexy and mysterious. Found out he's the guitarist in a very sucessful rock group just signed with mushroom. I'm good with this stalking business...haha

Well i might go be social with zoes friends, just for something to do really. I'm meeting christian after work if i haven't passed out before then. Nighty.